Short but sweet

Mike arrived around 5:30 last night. We hung out, had salads for dinner, and hung out some more. This morning we went out to breakfast and now he has headed to Phoenix. He had a business meeting in Colton CA yesterday and drove thru Quartzsite from the airport to CA, and again on the way back. I'm happy that we got to visit as I hadn't made any plans to go to Phoenix this year since I didn't know what my work schedule was going to be, plus the expense of a hotel room was prohibitive this year. I could do a day trip, but it is a two plus hour drive and when I drive that far, I like to stay a while.

Here are some fun photos from breakfast this morning. Playing with our phones.

The only thing on my agenda for today is to try and catch up on some sleep. I have today off and open the store tomorrow. Then I am off until Wednesday afternoon. A mini vacation. Plus the post office and I want to wait until this afternoon for that so I can get whatever might come in today's mail in addition to whatever is already there.

Dinner and lights

I have missed breakfast out with the neighbors the last three Sunday's. I was sick, then Glen and Diane went to Mexico and this last Sunday they were still in Phoenix waiting for their daughter to arrive. She was having trouble getting here due to the horrible weather and they had to wait four days for her to finally arrive. Anyway, I didn't feel like dealing with food and cooking yesterday so I asked Keith if he wanted to go get something to eat. I am also trying to make more of an effort do do something fun each week other than sleeping and working. 

We went to the new restaurant, La Casa Gold, and weren’t impressed. We both had the taco salad, Keith’s was chicken and mine was ground beef. They were very stingy with the sour cream and salsa, should have been at least double what they gave us and they put the meat on the bottom! I have never had one with meat on the bottom before. Took a while before we actually got to it. The ambiance is ok, lots of wood, the tables were beautiful polished wood, didn’t notice the chairs. Still smells a little musty because the building had been closed up a couple of years. And the service was just OK. Nothing really bad to write about it, but nothing really nice either. 

This was at the restaurant. Very pretty.

After dinner we took a ride over to Olinger Ave to see the light display I had been reading about. It was pretty impressive. You get to walk around this guy’s yard and see everything. We ran into Connie and Bob my neighbors when I was out in the desert. I see them at least once a year. We drove around a little more and looked at more lights.  I did not take pictures, there was just way too much to look at. All in all, it was a fun evening and it was nice to get out. I’m glad I made the effort even tho I didn’t really feel like going by the time dinner time came around.

On the negative side, when I went to bed I kept hearing this ticking noise. I have a water drip under the building somewhere and it is dripping on the heating ductwork and is being amplified. I really don’t need a water leak or a loud drip. I had heard it once before a year or so ago and it went away. I’m hoping it will this time too. Could be the result of the cold weather, something loosening up enough to drip, or condensation or something. I’ll deal with it next week if it is still dripping. I did manage to go to sleep in spite of that. Maybe Mark can fix it for me. I keep expecting the water heater to die. It is quite old and with the water here the life on those things is shortened considerably. So far so good tho.

Today I have to make a dumpster run and I tracked my innersoles for my work shoes, they won’t be at the post office until tomorrow, so I will probably wait until tomorrow to go there. 

When we got back last night UPS had been here and I still have the two boxes to open. One is the recoil pad for my shotgun and the other is the two floor lamps. I’ll get those assembled and in place this morning so I can get rid of the cardboard when I go to the dumpsters. I need to move the golf cart to the other side of the trailer so Mike will have a place to park when he is here. I’ll do that if I use the golf cart for the dumpster run.

Haven’t checked on the garden this morning. It wasn’t quite as cold last night. It had the added light and was quite bright.

    

Garden update

It has been cold here the last few days. Freezing cold...literally. I got some string lights in the garden enclosure and things were good yesterday morning, but this morning I discovered the zucchini lost a few leaves to the cold, but not the whole plant. So I added a 60 watt incandescent light to that corner since the string lights didn’t reach over there. Everything else looks good tho. Gonna be lighting up the neighborhood...

My amaryllis are getting closer to blooming and the xmas cactus are starting and all three should be blooming by Sunday.

I’m not doing a whole lot today. It is my only day off until Friday and I am going to enjoy as much of it as I can. It is still cold here.The sun is up, but isn’t giving off a lot of warmth and it is breezy so it is cold. My fingers are complaining. I still spend as much time outside as I can even when it is cold like this. I need the sunlight. I haven’t used the heater part of the fireplace yet, but those days aren’t far off. Supposed to warm up a little for a few days then get cold again. It is only in the low 50’s again today. Winter! Ugh! I know, I shouldn’t be complaining, I could be in the upper half of the states. Seems like everyone is getting hammered with winter this year.

My new floor lamps are supposed to arrive today. I also ordered a recoil pad for the 20 gauge. They shipped UPS so I don’t have to go to the post office. Yay. You should see the bruise I have on my shoulder from firing the shotgun only three times. The pad should help. I don’t remember having this problem with the full sized one I had before. Hope we go target shooting again soon. I enjoy that. I also enjoy showing up the “boys”.  Jake would be proud. 😊😊😊😊😊

I did not buy the christmas pillows I mentioned the other day. I didn’t bring any money or a credit card to work with me. They are still there tho….I might get them tomorrow if they haven’t sold. I really don’t need them, but they are snowflakes and can be used after the holidays too. The back side is solid red, so that would work any time.

I’m hoping that I am not so beat Thursday that I can’t enjoy what few hours Mike and I will have. Hoping we go out to eat, and then we might fire up the stove on the patio. That would be nice. I haven’t used it since last winter. Too much trouble for just myself…Although I should make more of an effort to do stuff like that. I have the little one for the trailer that my neighbors gave me last year. I could use too that one too.

Mark is supposed to work on the trailer next week. Get that back wall built and the door in. Going to ask him to help with the vent cover on the roof. Might as well since he will be here. Getting the wall and door in just might motivate me enough to finish up the trailer. Then I could take it out for a weekend or an overnight. That is it’s whole purpose. I have had it a year already and haven’t even used it.

Thinking of taking a ride around the park some night with the golf cart to see the Christmas lights. I guess there are a couple of places in town that are pretty impressive that I should check out too. It just isn’t the same by myself. Maybe I can talk Mike into doing that with me.

A fun Monday for a change

I'm thinking maybe the amaryllis will be blooming before Christmas. The paperwhites have finally started growing as well. They are happier in front of the sliding door than they were on the kitchen table. Just a little bit more light.

Got the new mattress finally and got the bed set up. I have been sleeping in there for at least part of the night since I got it all arranged. I did loose a few extra inches in the room because the mattress is wider than I had anticipated, but it is all good. I still gained a lot of useable space by downsizing the bed. 

One of the nights I couldn't sleep I once again pondered and formulated a plan to install a shelf in the garden enclosure. I stopped at Herb's on Saturday after work and bought the materials and Sunday morning I installed it. It isn't quite like I had planned, but is good for now. It gets the pots out of the way and I have a place for the garden implements now.

I ended up putting up two 2x4's on the outside and hung the shelf brackets on the inside through the chicken wire and plastic. There really wasn't anything to attach to on the inside, and this worked out quite well. 

Yesterday turned out to be pretty much a fun day. I went to coffee, and then went to Sal’s. Got a few xmas linens and a really nice outdoor light fixture for $5. Not sure where I will put it but would be a good replacement for the jury rigged light I did a while ago, and I will probably also paint it black before I put it up.

I also got a pretty woven jacket, but I ruined it when I washed it. Oh well. I think I can make a nice pillow cover out of it. Not a total loss. The linens were just some pretty napkins and a red and green plaid dish towel. 

I was restless and cranky yesterday. As you know, I do nothing but work and sleep. So I asked everyone on facebook what they were doing and if anyone was doing anything fun. I was thinking along the lines of shopping or going out to eat. But I got invited to go target shooting again, so I went. This time I took both rifles, the 20g shotgun and Jake’s bolt action .22. I had never fired either of them. The 20g I bought the same time I bought the little ruger. I traded in my mossberg for the single shot crack and load, but had never had the opportunity to try it out. I need a recoil pad for it tho. It has quite a kick and my shoulder is pretty sore. I only fired it a few times because of that. The .22 on the other hand is my new favorite gun. I hit my target (12 oz soda can) every single time. I did with the 20g too. I wasn’t as accurate with my .22 ruger pistol, but was still pretty good. I need more practice with that one. I also got to fire an AR15 assault rifle. That was a really nice gun, not a lot of recoil and very accurate. Once again, I did better than the “boys”. I had no idea that I was a decent shooter. Might invite a couple more girls the next time. Both Kay and Charlene want to go when we go again.

My arsenal… The one on the right is the bolt action .22, the left is the new 20g, and the lower left is my ruger .22. I’m thinking of getting a derringer. I have always wanted one and now that I have someone I can go shoot with, it wouldn’t be a total waste of money. 

Charlene texted and invited me to her camp on BLM for dinner. I contributed a fresh garden salad with mixed greens, peppers and radishes. We had sauteed veggies, corn muffins, polenta and acorn squash with apple pie for desert. It was kind of a rush getting the salad together and getting out there and Charlene had to meet me at the gate so I could follow her to her camp. Met another camper, Sylvianne, and we had dinner and conversation. I didn’t stay late as I was quite tired by then. The salad was my first share from the garden. 

Sylvianne and the campsite….and dinner.

So all in all, it was a fun day. I had forgotten how much I liked target shooting. I get a great sense of satisfaction when we go. And I got to blow away some cans. Plus I met another new person, had a good meal and good conversation. That is always fun.

Today I have to do everything I blew off yesterday. I need to do my xmas stuff and also get the new tarp on the garden as it is going to cool off again this week. Plus more sleep. I only got about three hours last night in addition to the hour or so when I fell asleep reading. No TV last night. I had started a book that I wanted to finish, but didn’t quite make it before I fell asleep. I finished it this morning. But it was really nice to actually get out and do something for a change. I wish I had more time to do stuff like that. Sigh….

Another birthday passes

Today I turned 57. It was a quiet day at home. Again. This year I was sick and had to pass up breakfast and coffee this morning. I didn't want to give my cold to anyone else. I'm still feeling pretty crappy.

I got a phone call this morning from Susan, and many online wishes, but I really miss being someone's special person. Sigh....

I got a surprise gift certificate from Sandra and a hand stitched birthday card from Lois.

I'm grateful for the people that sent me wishes and the card and gift, but my birthdays always seem to disappoint. Maybe I wish for too much. 

End of whine....

I really have to find another job...

I am so grateful I wasn’t working yesterday! There was a 911 call for a belligerent customer harassing the cashiers and that attacked another customer with something sharp and took off. A transient, homeless, whatever. Probably a druggie. Lots of panhandling and squatting here even tho it is illegal, especially in the winter. But I really do need to get out of DG as soon as possible. Customers are enough of a pain in the ass without being dangerous as well. I’m just glad it wasn’t on my shift. Not sure how it all played out, but I think they got him.

I had a quiet day yesterday. I watched all four episodes of Gilmore Girls, but I snoozed through some of it, especially the first one. I think I missed most of that one. I did have my thanksgiving dinner and it was pretty good. Now I am over it. The critters are going to get the leftovers, one of my goals today is to get the fridge cleaned out. I’m sure the veggies I bought three weeks ago are ready to be tossed too. I have fresh leftovers that I made last night, and I think I will have a piece of ham with that tonight. 

I had to repair the roof part of the garden plastic yesterday. I had it in layers since it wasn’t big enough to cover the whole thing, but the rain got in between the layers and there were rivers of water dropping onto the garden. I may have lost a few things. But the wind also opened up a section, so I got that taped back together and went online and ordered a reinforced clear tarp big enough to cover the whole top and two of the sides in one piece, with grommets. For now, I will just put that over the existing plastic…added insulation. I never even considered the water since it hardly ever rains here. Everything is sopping wet and I need to change the watering timer to every other day on both the garden and the grapefruit. It isn’t getting a chance to dry out. 

Everything was covered in dew this morning. If it had been a few degrees colder it would have been a heavy frost. Brrr…I will rest a little easier when I get the new tarp for the garden on. Will still have to figure out how to keep it from freezing when it drops below freezing, but I should have a little time before that happens. The grapefruit on the tree are starting to ripen. I hope they will be edible. There aren’t many but they will be my first ones.

I have ordered a new battery for my phone. It has been giving me lots of trouble lately. It is plugged in more than it isn’t now, and drops like a rock when I use it. From what I can tell, it is four years old. Mike had it before me and I have had it two years now. So I guess it is time to replace the battery. I will have to go online and find the instructions to do that. The battery comes with the tool kit needed to open it up. I changed the one in my old phone and it was a pain in the ass. I am assuming this one will be too. But at least I will be prepared this time. I will have to think about upgrading at some point but I refuse to spend more than a hundred bucks for a new phone, so it probably won’t be an iPhone unless I get another of Mike’s hand me downs.

I need to go to the post office. Not sure if I will do that today or tomorrow. I should also clean the bathroom, it has been a while and the corners need attention. 

There isn’t going to be a christmas potluck this year. Two have ruined it for the rest of us. Politics and unrest are everywhere. It only takes one or two trouble makers to ruin it for everyone else. I was looking forward to it this year, it would have been my first since I went to Phoenix the last two years. Maybe we will eat out instead. Whatever. 

Today will be my Thanksgiving

My goal for the day is to do pretty much nothing. I have everything I need to make a Thanksgiving dinner, don't even have to cook the turkey. I have stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, and even a mini pumpkin pie from one of my neighbors, so I will be fixing myself the meal that I missed on Thursday. My other goal is to watch Gilmore Girls, A Year In The Life. All at once. A marathon.

Of course, since I worked last night, I will be napping off and on as well. Sounds like a good day to me.

I have decided to downsize the bed in the bedroom. Since I have been sleeping in the chair more and more, the big bed is just a waste. I haven't used it for company more than once and that was a single individual, so I have decided that space could be put to better use. I ordered a twin mattress and will separate the two halves of the bed frame and make a daybed. Then I am going to move my desk and chair and a couple other things in and use it as an office/spare room type of deal. I hope to be able to sleep in there again, but for now I am getting more sleep in my chair, so am going to go with that for a while. I don't get enough sleep as it is.

I started my third year in Quartzsite on the 26th. A milestone. Doesn't feel like I have been here that long and so many changes since I pulled in with Ody. Nothing ever stays the same, and that is a good thing.

Worst Thanksgiving?

OK! I am finally settling down to write this morning. I think I can safely say that yesterday was the worst Thanksgiving I have ever had.

It was a miserable day, surprisingly busy at work, but I guess we were the only game in town. I was all set for my six hour shift, then the cashier that was supposed to work last night called in with an emergency. I was the manager on duty and there was no one else to call so I ended up working a double shift. 12 hours on three hours sleep. 12 hours constantly on the move and on my feet. It was a very long day. In spite of being so tired, my drawer was only off by twenty cents. I wish it had been spot on, but I will settle for 20 cents over. I knew I was tired, so I was watching myself and not working on auto pilot like I usually do.

My Thanksgiving dinner was a Hormel Completes turkey, gravy and stuffing and it was horrible. We didn’t have any frozen turkey dinners in the freezer. I did have an eggnog with that. As bad as it was, it lasted the shift and I wasn’t starving by the time I left.  This morning Judy dropped off my plate that Diane saved for me, so I will have a good lunch before I go to work today. And tonight, one of my customers is supposed to bring a fish fry dinner for me. I work every Friday night, so I don’t get to do that any more. I missed that. She gave me hers last week and it was really good. She comes in and buys beer every night, so I think I will buy a six pack for her. It is much less than I would have paid for the dinner and she refused money. I really need to get her name…I’m horrible with names.

Tomorrow they are going to have turkey noodle soup at the club house, I will be able to do that before I go to work. It is supposed to be at 1 and I don’t work until 3. I really would have liked to have been at the potluck yesterday, but I opted for the extra pay. I didn't know it was going to be a double shift.  I would have been called in anyway since Marie didn’t show again. I will be able to do the Christmas one tho, the store is closed that day.

I ordered two wrist braces online this morning (I can’t find my old one). One for daytime and one for night. My carpal tunnel is beyond the point of just numbness, there is also a pretty heavy duty ache with it. Surprisingly it wasn’t the lifting and stocking that has bothered me, but all the time on the register. I have been spending a lot more time on the register lately and that will be a regular thing until April. They keyboard is about shoulder height and is very bad for me. And since I got extra hours yesterday, I also ordered a new shredder. I had been wanting it for a while now and figured I would just bite the bullet and get it. The little one I got at Salvation Army just isn’t big enough for what I shred. I wait too long to do it and have too much. It keeps over heating and a twenty minute job turns into several hours while I wait for it to cool down and work again. Pain in the ass. Plus, it has a bigger container and I won’t have to empty it every time I use it.

I got the garden covered just in time. 38 degrees last night. I just went in and it smells so good. Smells just like a greenhouse and the plants seem pretty happy. I should probably put my pots in there too, but I haven’t figured out a shelf yet. That is on my list for Monday. I think I am going to suspend it from the roof somehow since there aren’t any walls or uprights to attach it to. I think I have just about everything I need to do that except the board, and I can get that at Herbs. I will see what I have here first that I might be able to use. I might have a wire shelf that I can just sit on the U or hang. The first batch of lupine that came up don’t look very good and I haven’t checked any of them this morning to see how they weathered the cold. They will probably do better enclosed.

Surprisingly, other than my hand, I don’t feel as bad as I had expected this morning. I took some Aleve as soon as I got home and I think that made the difference. I slept about six hours and plan to get some more before I go to work tonight. 

Gilmore Girls, A Year In The Life, is finally on Netflix! Yay! I hope it comes out on DVD so I can complete my set. I’m going to wait until Monday to watch it tho. We had to wait long enough for it to be released, and I want to be able to watch all four episodes without having to worry about stopping it and going to work. 

I had a website update to do this morning too. That was supposed to be done last night. I did that before I did anything else this morning. This will be my last year for those. I am going to let them know at the end of the season to give them plenty of time to find someone else to maintain their sites. I’m tired of it.  I have been doing it over ten years, mostly free, and since I am not there anymore, it is time they found someone else. Especially now that I have to work again. It just takes time out of what little time off that I do have. 

Well, I guess that is about it. Time to think about getting a nap before work. It is amazing how fast the mornings go. 

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving to all my family and friends and friends that have become family! I am thankful for all of you!

I will be working a five hour shift today. I had the option to take the day off with pay, but volunteered so that people with families could have the day off. I will be missing the Thanksgiving potluck, but will be here for the Christmas one.

I am thankful I have a job, my home, my health, and my family and friends. Thank you.

Monday and Tuesday

Monday morning, in spite of being exhausted, I went to the post office to pick up my packages. There was about a half hour wait. Reuben was the only one on window and this was the line. It isn't even December yet. 

Before I went to the post office I stopped at Salvation Army. They have all their Christmas stuff out and I found several things. This is my haul and I only spent $3.50.

Got the house mostly cleaned yesterday. The vacuum did bother my carpal tunnel, but the floors needed it. I even dusted. I also did my shredding. That took a lot longer than it should have, lots of little time slips and receipts. It kept over heating and shutting down so I had to wait for it to cool off before I could continue. I think I am going to get a bigger shredder, something with an automatic on switch when I put paper in and a larger receptacle. I might do it more often then, like whenever I need to get rid of a time slip or a receipt so it doesn’t build up. And if it does build up, it won’t take as long to do. I hate shredding.

I decided to get rid of the Halloween decorations and dug out my xmas stuff. I put up the new tiny tinsel tree and put lights and a bead garland on it and my two snowmen ornaments with Jake and my names on them. We bought those on one of our last vacations together. I need to buy some tiny ornaments to finish it up, most of mine are way too big for the tiny tinsel tree.

I have more to do, but didn’t want to go overboard since it isn’t even December yet. I will probably add stuff as I find it. I'm not done with Sal's yet.

This is the carved wood santa I got the other day. He has glue around his mouth and I’m not sure how to get it off. You can’t really see it unless you look closely, I may not try as I don't really want to have to repaint it.

And these are the dishes. I found two plates and a platter to match on eBay and ordered them. They are the Gibson 2002 series. Those of course cost a lot more, but I really like them..

Both amaryllis pots fit in the new basket although it was a tight squeeze.

Cleaning and decorating took me up to about lunch time. I had already eaten lunch when Glen and Diane drove up and asked if I wanted to go for a burger. Unfortunately I hadn’t showered or dressed and had on my daytime jammies. They tried to convince me that I looked fine, but I said no. I would have liked to have gone, but a little notice would have been nice. I won’t go out in public in my jammies, daytime or night time.

A quick nap in the afternoon, some reading, and then some TV. 

That was the extent of my two days off. Looks like I will be having some website work later today or tomorrow for one of the snowmobile sites. 

I still need to enclose the garden. The nights are in the 40’s and I think I am going to change the watering to every other day for a while. But I will save that for Monday and Tuesday. Of course I found the staples that I knew I had but couldn't find for the staple gun after I ordered and received ones that fit. Sigh...

My work schedule will be changing now that we have another full time key holder. Looks like I will be getting some days and not closing five nights per week. We’ll see how that goes. Right now I have no life and I don’t like it. Today I go in at 3 and tomorrow is 10 to 3:30. Then back to nights for at least Friday. I should get the new schedule when I go in today. 

Sorry it has been so long....

It has been a while since I have written anything and I was reminded of that fact yesterday. Thanks Jerry!

I try not to write the same thing over and over, it gets boring even for me. My life these days consists of working and sleeping. When I am not working I am trying to get enough sleep that I can work. I only sleep three and four hours at a time, so it is a long drawn out affair.

Work is getting crazy. It is that season, and it is only going to get worse before it gets better. If I survive the month of January at DG Quartzsite, I can survive just about anything. We just need enough people on register to keep the complaints down to a dull roar. No one is ever happy. But we do our best.

My garden has green and growing things in it. Yay! Now I hope I can keep it going through the coldest part of the winter. I brought home my clear vinyl shower curtains that I will be using to enclose it and make it into a makeshift greenhouse for the season. I bought a dozen of them, so I should have enough plus some extra in case of a failure. I only bought the lightweight ones as they were half the price of the heavy duty vinyl curtains. It still cost almost $50.

I bought a bike last week. I finally found one with a color that I could live with that was less than a hundred bucks. I didn't want to spend more because I probably won't be using it all that much. It was even pre-assembled. I have to order a gel cover for the seat before I can use it tho, the couple of minutes I sat on the seat, it hurt.

It has way too many speeds, I would have been happy with three, but the price was right and the color was livable. No fancy tires or pastel colors. I will have to figure out a basket or a rack for it if I am to use it for a quick trip to the store, and I would like to find a lock that isn't one of the coiled cable ones as I hate fighting with that. But in the meantime, the gel seat cover is ordered and I do have a lock I can use. 

Here are a few garden pics from a couple of days ago. All of the zucchini seeds have sprouted, everything looks like it is doing well. I added the first worm castings the other day since most everything is above ground. 

So far, so good.

The other day I finally got the railroad ties dug into the ground. Now I can touch them with my tires without moving them. No more hitting the fence when I back in. 

I also aired up my car tires, got the tire sensors working again, cleaned the windows and then proceeded to wiped down the car since it was covered in dust. It looks so much better now. 

I have started some seeds in pots outside of the garden too. The tubers I put in haven't done anything, but most of the seeds have. I started geraniums, two different varities of lupine, another shot at the desert willow, and of course the walking onion from Deanna in Saco. Those have taken off like wildfire. 

Today is a work day. I work 3 to 11:30. The last few weeks I have been working 40 hours - nights. I will spend most of the morning trying to get a little more sleep since I only get about three hours at night. I can't function at DG on that little sleep. The job is way too physical and demanding. I am still hoping that I will be able to find a normal job that I can stand to replace the DG job at some point. In the meantime, I will do the best I can with what I have. 

Garden update

The bales of pro mix arrived on Friday and I got them in the garden Saturday morning. I should have waited to plant, but I didn't, and it settled over night after being watered. I can't afford to order more soil anyway, so it will have to do. I planted mescalun, turnip greens, spinach, radishes, herbs, tomatoes and several other things. I didn't have any lettuce seed and will have to get some. I also started several pots with geraniums. my bulbs from DG, and am trying one more time to grow a couple of desert willow trees. Hoping the pro mix will make the difference.

Thursday I was informed that the store is now open until 11 PM. So I am getting home an hour later at night. With the way I sleep, that isn't a good thing. But I will have to deal with it.

I got to go to breakfast on Sunday and coffee on Monday. A bunch of us also went to the Roadrunner floating bar and grill last night for burgers. We had a good time.

We had an awesome sunset last night. I took pictures, but was in a moving vehicle at the time, so they aren't all that great, but here is one that isn't bad.

Today is my day two of two days off. It goes way too fast. I wish I didn't have to work to eat, but it is what it is. 

I had a moment last night, and it almost made me cry. I was really enjoying the water, the breeze, the scents in the air, the whole atmosphere, and I realized that Jake should have been there with me. I could almost see him standing beside me. It made me so very sad. It actually physically hurt that he wasn’t there with me. Even after seven years I still have moments that take my breath away. I still miss him each and every day.

Still feel I made the right decision

It was nice not doing much of anything yesterday. I am still processing the whole job situation, but I’m pretty sure I made the right decision for me. I didn’t like it there. And I don’t think it would have improved. I am relived that I don’t have to go back. I still feel a little guilty about the way the whole thing went down, but it is done now. 

The one person who friended me on FB from the new job seemed to think my feelings were hurt from the girls talking about me. Well, they aren’t. You have to care about someone to be hurt by them and I don’t care about them, haven’t been there long enough. It wasn’t what made me quit, I could deal with that crap if I had liked the job, it was just the catalyst. While sitting there listening to them, I realized that I didn’t have to stay at a job I didn’t like. So I am actually grateful they did what they did, otherwise I would still be there and none of us would be happy. She thinks I should have stayed and talked to the Judge, but I don’t feel that would have done any good. The judge has bigger things to worry about than dealing with petty office politics. It wouldn’t have changed how I felt about the job itself either.

I got a two hour nap in the afternoon and that felt good. I needed it. But of course I am up in the wee hours again. 

The last two bags of soil and my second set of soaker hoses came yesterday and I decided to put them in the shed. But that meant I needed to do a little reorganizing because once again  I couldn’t walk in there. Things had been going in, but nothing had been coming out. That created more stuff that needed to go to the dumpsters, so after I got the shed reorganized, I took the over loaded golf cart and off I went. 

Spent some time proof reading Pat’s new book. I had told her a couple of weeks ago that I would, but with the new job and all, I forgot. I haven’t finished it yet, but I should today. It’s kind of kool that I get to read books before they go to print. 

While organizing the shed, I realized that I am missing one of the clothesline brackets. I had one unboxed, but am not sure if it is the missing one or not. The tracking info says it was delivered, but I can’t find it. I will look again today, and then if I still can’t find it, will send an email. I am planning on stringing the ones that Mark put up for me so they will be ready the next time I need it. 

There is a whole list of things I could do today. Not sure I will do any of them. We’ll see what I feel like doing as the day progresses. I will be working mostly nights now, so I will have my mornings back and will have some time to do some things. 

It rained last night. It was just starting to sprinkle when I got back from the dumpsters. We had a full fledged thunderstorm. The power even went out long enough to screw up the clocks and my outdoor light sensor. I will have to make sure the light is back up and running by tomorrow as I will need it when I get home from work. Hopefully this sensor survived the outage, the last one didn’t and I had to replace it.  It was cloudy all day and was actually kind of nice. Doesn’t happen very often. A little break from the sun. But the humidity is back up and is supposed to hang around for a couple of days. I didn’t get to watch DWTS last night as I couldn’t get the TV antenna tweaked properly. The storm probably had something to do with that. I will try again tonight to get that lined up and working again. Not that I have been watching all that much TV lately anyway.

I have one more snowmobile website to do. Just got a batch of emails. Not sure I will deal with them today tho. It is supposed to be my day off. I go back to DG at 3 tomorrow.  I can do that in the morning. This one is easier as there are no special scripts or forms involved.

Yesterday was kind of an eating day. I think it probably had to do with stress and upset. Hoping I do better today. I really don’t want to start gaining weight again. Plus, I have to stop buying junk food and bringing it home. If it isn’t here, I can’t eat it.

An unexpected day off

I quit my new job this morning. As I had mentioned before, I was concerned that it was all women there, and I overheard a conversation about me this morning, while sitting at my desk waiting for 8 o’clock, that I wasn’t meant to hear. I pretty much knew I didn’t like the job, but was willing to give it a chance until I overheard what they were saying about me. I don’t need that crap in my life, so it was the catalyst for me grabbing my stuff and leaving. I only told my supervisor it wasn’t working out, and that I was sorry. To be honest, I am relieved. I don’t do drama, told them that when I interviewed, and just don’t want  to have to deal with that crap along with learning a very difficult job. A job that I am pretty sure I wouldn’t be happy at. Better that I got out now before I found myself stuck in a job that I hated.

I immediately went to DG and got my job back. Tom was very happy. So I have an unexpected day off and I am planning on doing absolutely nothing until I feel like doing something. And I am going to get a nap too!

I a conflicted. I am happy I don’t have to deal with that, yet I have never walked out of a job in my life. You should have seen the girls faces when I confronted them and asked them if they were talking about me. It was priceless. One of them said “it is what we do”. Well I don’t and I won’t, so I'm not.

I still have hopes that I will find a job that I would be happy with for several years. As we well know, not everyone works out. But until then, I still have my job at DG. I even got my Sunday mornings off so I can go to breakfast with the neighbors again. Still have my Monday and Tuesday’s too. I am giving up holiday’s off, but I think the trade off is worth it. Especially since I wouldn't have gotten paid holidays like everyone else. I had a bad feeling about that place. I would have been in direct line of fire if someone had come in and gone postal...Just one more thing to be happy I don't have to deal with.