I’m afraid today is the day. :( I don’t want to do it, but I need to take Kali Cat in for the last time. She is peeing everywhere now, not just in the shower or on the pads. She isn’t happy, I’m not happy and it isn’t going to get any better. I will probably change my mind a dozen times between now and then, the vet closes at noon. She won’t eat the food with the meds in it at all now, and is mostly not eating the food without too. I hope I am making the right decision.
I don’t have any plans for today other than Monday morning coffee, and I think I am going to skip that this morning. I’m in no condition to be around people, especially sympathy. I’ll hole up for a couple of days and hopefully by next Monday I will be ok. I’m going to have to get some rug cleaner because I am pretty sure she has been going on the rug for a day or so. I’m seeing new spots that shouldn’t be there. Everything dries so fast here, unless I see her do it, there aren’t any wet spots. I may have to have the carpet guy come back and do the living room rug.
I’m not setting any goals for today or tomorrow other than cleaning up after the cat. It is going to be so strange. She has been my constant companion for the last five plus years, and before that, she was always there. 18 years.
I will be OK, just lots and lots of tears. They have already started. :(